Dear Depression, why us?

I always wonder when my brain started becoming imbalanced. When you are diagnosed with depression, what causes it is a chemical imbalance, a lack of either Serotonin or Neuropenephrin in your brain, or even both. I myself lack both and I have what is called “Situational Depression.” What that means is, because of the life experiences that I have gone through, my brain has not adapted to them. It happened over time, but I was so in denial.

I always wonder, if the traumatic experiences I have been through didn’t happen to me, would I still have developed depression? Why did I even have to get depression? Why can I not just be like superwoman, be a warrior and just not worry so much about so many different things? Why did those events HAVE to happen to me? I know I am not the only one that goes through this, and I know those people dealing with Situational Depression ask the same things– so, why us? Even people with genetic depression or seasonal depression more than likely ask similar questions. No matter what type of depression we have, the mean question is; why do we have to be burdened with depression? Why us?

Depression makes my day-to-day life a constant battle. I am always anxious about something, or I am always crying about something. Although, I believe that if I didn’t have depression, and if all of those experiences never happened to me, then I would not be the person I am today. I know depression can make us “difficult” compared to others who make it out to be like they live the perfect lives. That is not always the case, everybody has some sort of struggle, no matter what they say. Maybe some people aren’t diagnosed with depression, but we are never alone. We are who we are and I believe that we are made how we are and our whole life is planned out before we are even born. I believe what we go through is inevitable, so make the most of it. We are all unique in our own ways and there is always going to be someone out there that sees your worth. You just need to see your own worth as well. (:

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“Alone” by Lee Haywood under Attribution-ShareAlike 2.0 Generic.

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One thought on “Dear Depression, why us?

  1. Powerful post! I know sharing this was difficult, and I bet there are a few folks here that are going through something similar. Maybe your post will give them the courage to speak up!

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